I Just Want to Scream

I just want to scream, but I know it won’t do any good.

I heard that a ferry to Jeju that was sinking. News implied all would get out alive. I thought it was Costa Concordia like, if only it was comparable now.

We watched the television late into last night, and all of this morning the volume was up high. We heard talking heads of doctors and divers explain what is wrong and what is right. At one stage I almost cried. I felt that here was the greatest loss of life. And all the time the television showed that hull, the end where those rotors spun south, poking and bobbing like a message in a bottle, an arrow directing all souls to heaven’s heights.

I just want to scream, but I know it won’t do any good.

There are others more suited to anger. There are others more suited to decry. What matters now is to get those kids out alive. Kakao Talk told us some have survived. In a bubble somewhere with all kinds of refuse and the water as cold as those who died. We wait, and we wait, and we watch another news broadcast. And again a talking head tells us we cannot hold out hope for how many might be inside.

I just want to scream, but I know it won’t do any good.

A crane, they said, is floating to the site. A day it will take. I wish I could go and help push. Heave it with everyone else watching, in tears for these boys and girls in their formative years. The years when our lives are determined and we certainly never forget. Our friends who last with us until there’s none of us left. We go through it, our highest triviality til then,and we think it’s the end but come out together.

I just want to scream, but I know it won’t do any good.

The lies. The ineptitude. The waste. The love lost. The flowers laid. The broken days. The way so many lives were left to be taken so carelessly away.

I just want to scream, but I know it won’t be loud enough.

8 thoughts on “I Just Want to Scream

  1. Very early on in this horrible tragedy, but my two thoughts:

    It’s unconscionable that somebody announced all the schoolchildren had survived before knowing the facts at the scene. Seriously, don’t just fire the asshat who did this, fire the whole department. This alone merits a full-scale investigation.

    Second, it’s sounding more and more like the order to “stay put” might have led to many unnecessary deaths. Why not, at least, order people to get above decks and prepare for a possible evacuation? Why was only one lifeboat launched?

    Very sad and angry about all of this.


    • It’s beyond frustrating.

      Latest news is saying the Captain was one of the first off the ship.

      Personally the way this is going I’m surprised he was even on it. Lets not forget that this is not the first time something like this has happened in the same stretch of water.


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